Some New Pics

Jaxon feeding Mum and Don's new dog Emma

Daddy stuck lotion in his hair! He was so happy that night!

Being Cute!!

And being cute again....

Baby is turning into a toddler!

Jaxon is growing quickly and is turning into a toddler before my eyes! He will be 10 months on the 9th of the month, I'm already trying to think of what to do for his first birthday. Jaxon is such a happy boy, he rarely cries, he sleeps, and he is a great eater! He went for a check up a few weeks ago and he weighs 24 pounds, he is 27 inches long. He is eating all the same things I am and refuses to eat baby food, he has 2 bottom teeth and hes pushing 2 top ones out. He is moving around and can never sit still, he has even pulled himself up a few times. My brother was out for a visit this weekend with some friends and its so neat to see Jaxon studying them, acknowledging them when they came in the room. He's very aware of who Scott is "dada" and myself "nana" he only says "mama" when hes upset, he knows who grandma is. He knows what tub tub means (bath time) and seepy time (bed time!) breakfast and dinner time, puffies (they are his fave snack!) Everyday he is learning something new, its so amazing to watch him grow. Last week he learnt to head bang from Daddy! Stick his tongue out from Mummy, and wave, so much fun! I love that right now he is an only child, and I can spend all my time with just him, but I'm also so excited to see him as a big brother in January when the new little one comes. I wish I had camera's set up all over my house so I could record every amazing and magical moment!

Solid Foods Yay!

Jaxon has started eating solid foods! Scott and I get such a kick out of watching him eat. So far he has had carrots, butternut squash, sweet potatoes, green beans and peas, which surprisinly his favorite. He loves his food so much that I am literally shoveling it into his mouth because I can't get it in there fast enough! He started eating solids about three weeks ago, and he was just at 17lbs, I weighed him today and he is almost 18lbs! My little tub of chub!

Balance

As we get into the swing of being a new family, one question always pops into my head. How do Mum's work, manage a home, and take care of a new baby? How do they juggle it all? I'm having a hard enough time finding a babysitter! Before I was pregnant, Scott spent hours and hours building me a gym, to us it was "perfect." As my pregnancy progressed, the sicker I became and after a few short months of Atmosphere being open we closed the doors. Now that Jaxon is here, there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about the gym. I want to get back into training but I don't know where to start, I feel like the day is barely long enough for me to do what I need to do to keep everyone going. People ask me if I'm going to have another baby, I wouldn't know what to do with two! How do you find balance, and I mean real balance, not going to work, taking care of the house, looking after babe, wanting to rip your hair out, and crashing at 7:00 balance. I mean real balance or is there such a thing? Maybe it's early days for me yet and I'll eventually figure it out. One thing is for sure though, I love this little boy of mine, and even if I never find the balance I am looking for, there is nothing better than having a happy, healthy little boy at home to snuggle with everyday!

A Big First

I touched on here the last time about firsts and Jaxon had a big first last weekend. He met his big brother Madix! We were all very excited for Madix to come out here, it was his first visit to our home, first visit with Scott alone, and the first time he would meet Jaxon. We tried to make Madix feel as comfortable as we could, we didn't want any jealousy going on! I'm happy to report there was no jealousy whatsoever from Madix, he went right into the role of big brother, and he took that role very seriously. Everytime Jaxon would cry, Madix would tell us that his brother needed him, even if they weren't in the same room, Madix would come running out "my brother needs me." Jaxon would just watch him and smile, or coo, it was very cute to see them interact. I would also like to say that this was also Jaxon's first time meeting his Grandpa and Grandma Hartney, it made me happy to see Jax getting so many snuggles! He wasn't at a loss for attention!

Madix and Jaxon         Daddy with his 2 boys!

Firsts

Last week Jaxon went swimming at the pool for the first time! He was so cute in his little swimmers and Ghostbuster speedo, that was passed down from his Uncle Elliott. He was great in the water, he didn't like to be on his back, he was more content to be on his belly drinking the water :s. It started me thinking on all the firsts that are to come for him, first step, tooth, haircut, learning to ride his bike, first day at school, first love, heartbreak, etc, it also made me think back to all my firsts. Some of them I can remember, some of them I'd like to forget and some I don't have any recolection of whatsoever, but mostly I just became very excited. What an amazing honor it is to take part in another human being's life so intimately with no other goal but to make all their memories happy ones! We start our first set of swimming lessons next week, and I don't know who is more excited, me or him!

One Damn Cute Baby ;)

Sometimes A Break Is All You Need

So, yesterday I had an appointment first thing in the morning and I dropped little Jax off with Grandma Ann. I picked him up around 11:00am and the screaming began and it lasted until today, so off again Jax went to Grandma Ann's so I could regain my sanity, the little of it I had left! I find it very hard not to let my guilt take over and keep him with me even though I could scream with him, but at the end of the day I know I'm a better Mum for letting him go.

Why is it that we Mum's allow the guilt to take over? Why do we know in our heads that its the best thing to do for babe and ourselves, but our hearts rip apart everytime we do it? Eleven weeks ago he was not here, albeit he was in my belly, but I was still mostly a single person, with the days being mine, my thoughts about me, what I want to accomplish in the years to come, to all of a sudden being a Mum with a little person who takes over my days, whose dreams consume my thoughts, to all the things I want him to accomplish. I find it so amazing that all of a sudden how unselfish you become, everything is about them.

When I give him up for a couple hours, there is nothing that makes me as happy as when I go to pick him up, and see him at peace; then I'm at peace, I can continue on, I can be what he needs me to be.

Sometimes a break is all I need, however short or long it may be.

10 Weeks Already!

I have officially been a Mum for 10 weeks this Tuesday! Time flies by so fast, if only the pregnancy would of gone by this fast I might consider doing it again! My little guy was born November 9th 2010 at 8:05am, he weighed 7lbs, 2 ounces and was 20.5 inches long, with crazy dark brown hair and blue eyes. He now weighs 11.10lbs and he's 25 inches long!

I have to say I've been blessed by the sleeping gods, he sleeps for atleast a six hour stretch, up for a short feed and then back to bed. Not to say it's been all apples and pears or whatever that saying is! We have had our share of nights up trying to rock him to sleep, we've been puked on, pooped on and peed on, but it's been great.

I too have felt the guilt of a new Mum, not breastfeeding, leaving him with someone else, going back to work. But all in all the whole Mum thing is amazing, I'm part of the club and I love it!